Another day…another won…

Well. I am amidst the center of change once again. I have completed the CDI course training. Yahoo, Whoopity for me. A week of hell, boredom, and lots of studying. I haven’t studied or prepped for that much work in a long time. It is indeed finished. And I might add, I am glad I didn’t have to take that grammar test twice, thank God. 

I did an observation today at school. I am in fact now looking forward to this change in schools. i do indeed think, after going through it all that this will be a much needed change. Although I would have preferred a much smoother change, I guess nothing is easy. Nothing. There is a tighter schedule, and a longer class set ahead, but indeed the light is nearer. A set of kids worth pursuing, a set of educated students, and a supporting faculty that is there to help and inspiring a great learning environment.

Of course, like anything else, things are not always what they seem. It is indeed another job, a business, not a public school, and there are parents to please. The are logistics to be met, and check list to keep, but the previous knowledge seems to somehow comfort me in this new beginning. I suppose we will see tomorrow. Until then, good night.

just here…

I have been meaning to write for a while now, I guess I had neither the ambition nor the time to do so.

I wanted to get a few things out, or jsut write I guess, so this break in classes will suffice for now.

After a recent turn in knowledge and some other work debokles, I had been considering finding a new job as of late. I did tell my work people that I would stay on, kind of under the understanding that I really couldn’t make more money than I would be, were I to stay. Besides, I know the job, it’s not HORRIBLE. there could of course be PLENTY of things that need to change, and some of the people in charge do many many things with out thinking, or asking other foreign managers whether they think it’s right or not. And, so you know, I am not a manager, so I am not talking about me. thank you very much. I also don;t apreciate how the “other” teachers are being treated. the best working environment is not one in which you talk about them behind their backs, and then tell them rude things to their face, and just assume they’ll want to keep working, and working hard for you, especially when yo are alredy working your buttocks off for them. Anyways, I am pretty sure that I will get a mess of flack, and other headaches if I leave, not sure how I feel about those, but I guess the desicion needs to be made soon right? So, it iwll happen one way or another, in three days.

In two weeks we start teaching a sunday shcool class at a church here. It should be fun. it will be very organized, and a lot of work at first I assume, but once it gets going, it shouldn’t be too bad. Other than that, we take our wedding photo’s in three weeks. that should be interesting and…fun. Hahaha. It’s going to be one LONG day of picture taking…should be interesting.

Anyways, prep calls, I guess I will check in soon.

Life…

As I avoid getting to bed on time, thus moving my sleeping clock back to a horrible u-turn from where I had brought it too, I decided to leave a little something for those of you who I have been absent in contacting.

So many things have been happening I guess I didn’t really know where to start, and what to say about it all. I have been busy as ever doing many things. Unfortunately not exercising. My gym has now been closed for renovation for a month now. Actually over a month now, and it is to be two more weeks probably. 

A new school year has begun here in South Korea, and the classes are surprisingly running quite well in these first few days.  There have been a few bruises and bumps all in all, but over all it’s been good. I am really going to enjoy teaching the older kids, although I miss seeing my young kids every sometimes. Although, in their entrance into elementary school, they have picked up bad personality traits for other kids already. the innocence has left the building and their brains.

Church is good. I have been feeling a little teeter-tottery as of late. Not because of my thoughts on God, just me I guess, hitting that fall time again. I am looking for a spring, if you know what I mean. Maybe you don’t. I am just trying to stay away from winter. I am just worried with everything going on in my life that I will take a wrong turn, and end up in the cold on winter. If you don’t know what that is form my analogies, sorry, it’s not meant for you.  

Well, the part you have been avoiding… oh wait… the part I have been avoiding… 

The newish girlfriend. The old girlfriend. The girlfriend. She is relatively new, but feels old, and is there, present in my life. It has taken a turn for the serious. I don’t really feel like sharing everything right now, which is sucky of me I guess, but deal. Just know that it was unexpected. Not solicited. And more then I ever imagined. The funny part to me is that it’s not all butterflies and lolly-pops. But, it is real, and new fresh, and free of hassle. For the first time, I feel good, but mature. I feel a lot older. I don’t know if that sounds good, but it really feels good. It’s funny, I thought this would be much more difficult. I knew that dealing with my past would be obvious, but not painless. Here it is, here I am.

We’ll talk more soon. We have to talk more soon. There is much more you should know.  Big changes. 

When no words are neccessary…

I think sometimes the greatest realizations are found in complete silence. Or perhaps only the sound of laughter. I am reminded again and again that this is true. I know there are many people that teach children for the joy in knowing that they have perhaps built up an intellect that can not be pushed down. I do hope that that would be the end result for most of my kids, sure. But, I think that along with an education, that values and relationships be built as well.

Leaving the seriousness of the conversation behind for a little while. Yesterday I had perhaps the most gratifying 20 minutes of my life lately. As I walked towards the kitchen at school to wash one of my bowls from dinner, I had to wait in line behind another teacher from our pre-school to use the sink. I sat down on the bench in the waiting area of the pre-school to relax until I could use the sink, when along came Holly.  

Holly is a young girl about the age of 6. She is smart, and just learning English. She is also the daughter of the pre-school manager. I often have tickle boughts with Holly in the hallway for no apperent reason. It is often uninentionally the center of attention, and is most often frowned upon by the adults, because they think she is only bothering me. It is often quite a saticfying meeting for both her and I. Often playing around with her, making her laugh and smile and throwing her in the air can be pretty much the only thing that makes either of us happy for the day. I say this only because yesterday, we laughed, tickled, rubbed noses, and just plain had fun chasing each other around for over twenty minutes only using maybe 5 real words of conversation. Mostly questions on my end that she would wag a positive or negative answer in my direction before running straight on full force at me, charging in hopes that I would throw her back in the air. She has to stay late because her mom is in charge, and I stay late for Korean lessons. It’s a perfect match to rid those long day work blues.

I take joy in knowing that little or no conversation needs to be had in order to communicate with another human being, young or old. I have had the pleasure in realizing this truth many times here in Korea, in which there need be no words to communicate to another human being what you are wanting to communicate. At some point it becomes less about what the words are, and what you are truely seeking. In that I find some peace.

Saying goodbye…

Well, it was a fun run, but it’s time to say goodbye…

Just as I suspected…the Hawk has to go

A parent already complained today that “I was scary”. She didn’t want her kid near me I guess. So, this weekend, probably after a wild and raucous time at church I will cut it down.

May we all take a moment now in memory of the “little hawk that was”!!! Thank you all for your kind words…he will be missed